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Lisa
New Jersey,
United States
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I was pregnant at the age of 19, I had two sons by the age of 21. I was married to my high school sweetheart but that ended due to partying and ignorance of youth. I met a man in Promised Land, PA, starting dating, and soon found myself pregnant again. But this time I was encouraged to have an abortion as I was in the middle of a custody battle and it would not look right if I showed up pregnant.
When I arrived at the clinic, there were people holding up signs and calling me names. How I wish one of them would have hugged me and spoke to me about the effects of the choice I was about to make. I imagine the outcome would have been different. I remember the nurse asking me how far along I was. I thought I was six weeks. She did the math and said, "No, I think you are 12.” I stood up to leave, and she grabbed my arm and said "No, no, you are only six.” I felt that I had been deceived; I wish I had run from that building. I had to forgive her but, as I type this, it hurts my heart, the lying that is involved. This is the furthest thing from a quick fix. This "quick fix" stole the next ten years of my life.
I suffered from anxiety, guilt, depression, and shame to say the least. I believed there was no hope, but there is hope. The Lord has shown HIS love, mercy, and forgiveness in my life. My two sons are grown men. I have been blessed with two daughters, and I am married to that man I met in the Promised Land! All four kids know my story, and they know they can come to me if they find themselves in a place where they are faced with such a choice.
As in Isaiah 61 He has made beauty from ashes, He has restored my life. For ten years I could not say the word abortion but now, by the Grace of God, I am free and I will be silent no more! I will always regret my choice, but I now look forward to the day when I can hold my baby in heaven.
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