I had an abortion because I was young and scared and
alone. My mother told me to either have
an abortion or get out and never come back again. Sadly, at the time, I could see no other way
out.
During the abortion procedure, I experienced so much pain. As
soon as it began I wanted to stop it, but it was too late. The nurse and the doctor were cold and
unfeeling. During the procedure I tasted
blood and knew that my baby's life was over.
The pain was unbearable.
Immediately after my abortion, I felt a great sense of regret, loss, and
sorrow. I immediately missed my child
and desperately wanted to undo what I had done.
As time went on after my abortion, I felt so lonely and so
sad that I had not protected my baby. I
found myself looking in the faces of other children trying to see my lost
baby. My abortion impacted my life in
ways that I had never imagined. I turned
to alcohol, drugs, men and food for comfort and as a way to stop feeling, ease
the pain and numb myself. My entire
adult life has been plagued by deep depression, relationship problems, and
debilitating anxiety.
I found healing with a good therapist and through an
abortion healing program. Over the years
I have found help working, one on one, with a therapist who helped me find
trust, support, and love and a safe place to share my heart. I have made great progress with my
therapist. Life makes sense again and is
worth living. I also attended a weekend
abortion recovery retreat. I found
forgiveness and healing as I experienced the grace of Jesus meeting all of my
needs. I formed a bond with the men and
women there. I found peace, love, and
joy again. It was an amazing experience.
Everyone needs to know the lifelong wounds of abortion and that’s
why I am Silent No More!