I had an abortion, because I was afraid and didn’t think I would be a good parent at such a young age. My mum encouraged me to terminate the pregnancy for the same reasons.
During the abortion experiment I felt numb and removed from the situation, but I also regretted what I was doing.
Immediately following I fell into a deep depression due to the regret and pain I had caused and the knowledge that my baby wasn’t going to experience anything because of my being weak and afraid. Promiscuity, drug and alcohol use, obesity, and many years of burying what happened followed.
I found forgiveness when I found God, but I’m yet to truly forgive myself. I still feel regret and shame, but I hope my story helps me face what I did and truly forgive myself. That’s why I’m silent no more.