I had an abortion when I was young and poor. I really don’t like to think about it. I can say I have had a lot of pain after this. I wish someone would have told me how I would feel after the abortion, because I would have never done it. I have dealt with my pain though praying. I have not forgiven myself, yet I know God knows what’s in my heart and has forgiven me.
I had my abortion done at Planned Parenthood. I remember a young girl, younger then myself, ask me if I was nervous and of course I said yes. And she told me it’s nothing. This was her fifth abortion. I thought that was disgusting.
Then they took me for an ultra sound and asked me if I wanted to know if I was carrying twins. I said yes, and she informed me that it wasn’t. Then I went in the room sat on the table. The doctor came in hardly talked to me. All I remember is him saying that once he started, he could not stop. I told him to proceed, and I remember the worst sound in my life as he turned on that machine. I then went to recovery, sat there for 20 minutes, and left. I went home and still felt pregnant. At that point I sat in my closet and cried and prayed for forgiveness all night long.
This is a short version of my story. Like I said, I don’t like talking about this day 10 years ago, but this day has forever changed my life.