My abortion was when I was in college. I was living with a boyfriend, and I came up pregnant. There was no discussion about keeping the baby. My boyfriend, at the time, immediately said we will have to get an abortion. I did not have the means to support myself and a child on my own, and I felt like my parents would be very angry if I told them.
During the abortion procedure, I experienced regret immediately. I screamed during the procedure, not because of any pain, but because I knew what was happening.
As time went on after the abortion, I felt and experienced pain and sadness. I never told anyone except for my husband and sister.
After years of pain, I went through a healing program, with Rachel's Vineyard, and was able to receive God's forgiveness and forgive myself. I am working on feeling free from the shame and that's why I am silent no more!