I was raised in a non-Christian home. My employer at the time invited me to a Bible study at work even paid for us to go. My heart was closed and hardened. After dating an abusive man for a couple years, we became pregnant and we were going to get married. We went to the doctor and saw the baby ultrasound. We told our parents. We looked into insurance options. 

And then my boyfriend talked to his friends who told him it was a mistake to have a baby and get married so he told me that he would make my life a living hell if I had a baby. He would not support me. So he took me to the abortion clinic and I had the abortion and cried my eyes out in the recovery room. I left him what I thought was for good that day. Probably a week later I came to the realization that I had sinned and needed Jesus in my life.  It was like a ton of bricks on my head. I told my ex-boyfriend that we needed to ask Jesus for forgiveness. I then went back to Bible study with that open-heart and excepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior I was with my boyfriend again. 

We got married and had four kids. My kids all grew up knowing Jesus. After 18 years of marriage, my husband became very abusive again and we divorced. But a couple of my kids go on missions and they go all over the world spreading the gospel to countries that don’t have the opportunity to hear about it. They also started a Cru branch at their college. They have probably brought many, many people to Christ. 

I regret my abortion every day but through that tragedy many lives have been saved I believe. I have healed and want to tell others about how much abortion can do emotional and physical damage and that's why I am Silent No More.