My abortion was a long, long time ago. I'm in my late 50's now.  I was 18 and about to start my RN training when I assumed that I would have to terminate my pregnancy which was in its early stages.  I went to the doctor, told him I was about to start training, and asked for help.  The help he gave me came in the form of tablets.  I took them and lost the baby.  At the time, it didn't seem like any big deal. I went on to my RN training, then married and was blessed with 2 wonderful children who are now both married. I have grandchildren, blessings indeed.

However, my marriage broke down and I have never stopped thinking about THAT baby. What he or she would have been like? I regret what I did so much.  No one knew, not my parents, my children or my husband, not my friends or family.  It is the single thing in my life that I most regret and cannot undo. 

Four years ago I became a committed Christian in the Church of England. I have asked and received forgiveness for my sin, and I thank God daily for forgiving me and for the blessings he went on to give me in my children and grand-children.  I live a full life and still nurse and enjoy it. With Our Lord's help I'll work a long while yet.

It seemed such a little thing to do then, it seemed of no consequence, just a few cells. I believed the propaganda, but it was so, so wrong and I long to turn the clock back.  Life is not ours to take, trust in the Lord.