Lies Consumed Me

I became pregnant 7 months before my wedding. Parents strongly disapproved of my relationship. My fiancé had just lost his job - had little money, no health insurance and he was about to start school. He is the only person who knew - parents weren't told.

Quick - impulsive. Wanted to get back to normal ASAP. Scheduled procedure quickly - went into clinic quickly. Did not receive counseling - seek alternatives. Wanted to keep it quiet and secret.

Closed off all personal relationship. No intimacy with my husband. Sex was awful. I was angry at myself and at the world. Over time pushed everyone away - because they would hate me anyway. Had trouble bonding with children.

Initially sought support through Conquerors. Then sought professional counseling (2 years) and had little personal growth. Eventually received Christ and furthered growth.

My abortion made me very angry and hateful at myself and family. Lies began to consume me. I couldn't parent my kids - I was angry and rageful. As I began to heal, however, my life has changed -confidence/assurance has returned - self esteem is improving - helping others heal from abortion.