Now I have a broken heart over my lost children
I had 3 abortions. The 1st when I was 18. I was unmarried and afraid my parents would be very angry with me. I didnt know what was going to happen
to me (or happen to my baby). My boyfriend was involved.
[The abortions were] suction type procedures. The first one, I dont remember.
They offered 2 valiums and I took them. It was over fast. The 2nd one was very painful.
I dont remember much about the third one.
Ive had emotional problems after these abortions. Unable to express my feelings (numbness), grief
(unresolved). My marriage ended, also. There is an inability to trust men.
I volunteer for a crisis pregnancy center. I had counseling there.
I also had help from an Episcopal Priest.
[The abortions] changed my life because I could have had three beautiful children to complete my life. My marriage may also have not broken up. Now I have a broken heart over my lost children. And it haunts me that my cervix may be incompetent now after 3 abortions. I have much regret.