At 24 years old, I was married and had a daughter. At that time, my now ex-husband worked in another city and visited us on weekends. Unfortunately, during one of these visits, he infected me with a STD. I immediately received treatment for it. Little did I know I was pregnant with my second child. When I found out, I went to the doctor, who told me that the treatment I had received was too strong for the baby and that he could be born without limbs, blind, and deaf, so he recommended abortion.

Being Christian, I said no and started to cry. He said that at that moment (at 8 weeks), it was just a piece of tissue, so I shouldn’t worry about anything. He also told me that they have counselors that can help me take an informed decision.  All this happened in the Catholic nation of Colombia where abortions were still illegal…

So, I went to “counseling” and they convinced me to have a D & C. The funny thing is that I signed a document that stated that I have had an incomplete miscarriage, therefore I needed it this procedure. This event was wrong in every way, and I just never talked about it with anyone.

After the abortion my life changed.  I withdrew and rejected my Ex-husband who not only was unfaithful but gave me no support about the abortion.  After 12 years of marriage I got divorced and moved to United States.

As I said before, I never talked about my abortion until 20 years later, when my primary doctor, who I was seeing for pelvic pain, asked me if I had experienced some prior trauma. 

It is so ironic how a doctor in a religious nation chose death in my life while another doctor, in a nation of legal abortion directed me to seek healing for my pelvic pain and depression. 

Thanks God I found what I need in my church where they partnered with Safe Harbor, a Pregnancy Resource Center in Pensacola, Florida. I did the bible study “Forgiven and Set Free” as my initial healing.

Four years later, the Facilitator of that bible study, told me about the Deeper Still retreat, and how she herself, did the retreat and went deeper still in her healing!

That helped me to realize that I needed more healing also, so I came to my very own Deeper Still retreat in Spring 2024 and found the freedom that I was missing in my life,  and now I can say that I am 100 % healed from the wounds that the abortion left in my heart.