I am speaking out because I regret my abortion and I want others to know that there is healing and hope for those who are suffering from the long term effects of abortion.

     I had an abortion because I had been drugged and date raped. I had no one to turn to, was facing homelessness, and felt as though it was my only choice. At the abortion clinic when I was getting ready for the procedure, they didn’t tell me I had any other choice. They didn’t tell me that my baby was alive. They didn’t tell me I would regret my decision for years to come. During the abortion procedure I experienced extreme sorrow, loss, and I felt as though a piece of my soul was taken along with my baby.

     Immediately after my abortion, I felt lost, hopeless, guilty, and worthless. Over time I experienced severe depression, anxiety, and things which made me feel that I was going crazy. I would sometimes wake up at night to hear an infant crying that wasn’t there. And at times I felt kicks in my belly, but there was nothing there. If you have had or been impacted by an abortion I want you to know that you are not alone in whatever you may be feeling or experiencing. No matter how irrational or strange things may seem, many different things are common for those who are post abortive. I found help and forgiveness through an amazing healing weekend, and spending a lot of time pouring my heart out to God. I also found healing through speaking out and helping others. The most important thing I think people and all women need to know about abortion is that it is never the right choice,  it harms and hurts, and it never makes a situation better. After years of severe pain and isolation I went through a healing program and was able to finally receive God’s forgiveness and finally forgive myself, and that is why I am SILENT NO MORE!