I am currently disabled due to chronic kidney transplant and renal disease. I was diagnosed with the disease lupus nephritis since 1989, a year after high school.  I assumed that I couldn't have children and, when I found out, I was overjoyed. My ex wasn't overjoyed. That moment crushed my dream of ever having children. I still think about my child till this day. I had to forgive, but I haven't forgotten.  My child would have been 23 years old.

 

I am a follower of Jesus Christ and His atonement has freed me from bondage of sin, shame, and guilt. I must forgive others because if not, God will not forgive you. It takes time and patience to heal from brokenness. We are not perfect; however, we are close to the finishing race. I found help and forgiveness through God's word and support from my family and friends. I am still childless at the moment. I am a divorcee, and I am enjoying my single life right now. Whatever God's will for my life regarding marriage and children, He will make the way.