• I had an abortion because… I didn't know that my life- all life-had value. I was molested at 9 and lost my sense of my worth. It was easier to devalue the life of my child choosing mine over hers in a time of crisis. My great regret.
• During the abortion procedure I experienced ….an assembly line atmosphere. I was given a light sedative and told that "it would all be over soon. " At the sight of the doctor, I dissociated. I remember hearing a horrible sucking sound, feeling pain and pressure and waking up enough to see a suction canister of blood, liquid and gore!
• Immediately after the abortion I felt… numb. There was no comfort for me other than a chair and some crackers and water. I went to my sisters apartment and slept away the day. And then went back to school and resumed my studies like nothing ever happened.
• As time went on after the abortion I felt and experienced….. a need to defend my abortion choice. I even worked at Planned Parenthood for over a year dispensing contraceptives. But watching the same beautiful girls who looked like me, come and go again and again like a sick revolving door shifted something inside me.
• I found help and forgiveness through… a beautiful nudge by my heavenly Father almost 40 years after my abortion. I attended a Forgiven and Set Free Bible Study right before the start of the pandemic and I left that Zoom room with my hair on fire!–God beautifully broke me, freed me and sent me on a mission. And that is why I’m silent no more!